Today, I found myself irritated again. I was irritated with someone else and with a situation. “Just figures” I thought – “can’t believe it – I knew this would happen”.
Then, I realized – it wasn’t “them” that I was irritated with. I was irritated with myself. I am feeling pulled in two directions, even though I know I made a good decision, the right decision the other day. I really enjoy teaching, being in the hot room, guiding others and seeing their practice grow and the glow in their faces. I also enjoy and need the other, the business, the creative. Sometimes I wish I were two bodies, so I could do more of both (I have a dual nature already, being Gemini). Yet, I know that is not the answer.
I can only say that I need to be pulled right now, so I can continue the testing of self, the growth, the change. I know now is just a transition for me to something else…on the journey, on the road to who knows where.
No moss gathering here.